I do try to be grateful for all I have, but I don’t have you. I have your energy, your love, memories of you, but I don’t have you.I have your pictures at home, and when I travel, I take a picture of you with me. I have your smile, but I don’t have you.Emotionally and spiritually I have you. Physically, I don’t have you. When I think about you, I am comforted, but I don’t have you. I still cry, but I can’t let my thoughts of missing you overwhelm me. My life would stop. I must be ever thankful for what I have…..but I don’t have you.
Have Not
November 19, 2013
mother nature is a man and other observations.. 
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Hi, it’s Fuzzy (Kim)… I’m really sorry for your loss. I lost my Grandma who was my everything when I was 17. It’s a gazillion years later & she’s still never far from my heart.
I think I’m not the type made for romantic love. I was in love once. We broke up after 9 years, remained friends, best friends… like family, I thought. Apparently, I was wrong. It’s a raw, kick to the gut feeling of loss. I’m definitely going through the grieving process. I’m also trying very hard to maintain a positive attitude. It’s been difficult at best.
Let’s both hang in there!
Hi Kim,
I so appreciate that you took the time to write such a lovely comment. When you love with heart and soul, that person never dies. Their love and energy are with you for the rest of your life. If you believe in guardian angels, and I do, they become your guardian angel. May your memories of your Grandma bring you comfort. Let’s rejoice and celebrate them. You never get over Kim, but you do get through. Please keep reading my blogs and any comments are appreciated. So happy we connected on twitter.
…..this time of year is so difficult. I am sorry you are feeling the loss of your “other half” but at least you are grateful for the time you had. I love the saying..”It is better to have loved and lost, then to never have loved at all”.
Thank you for sharing your heart…. 🙂
Hi Courtney,
I’m so glad to have the opportunity to thank you for reading my blog. It’s is such a lovely feeling to know my words have touched you. I am friendly with many women who have never known the joy of being in love with a man who loves you back, and I am forever grateful. That feeling fills me with such feelings of joy. I will never get over the loss of my husband, but I do get through the moments. I also have never had another relationship to fill the void of being alone. As Betty White said when her husband died, “I had the best, who needs the rest!” Not easy being single in NYC. I believe if it’s meant to happen it will, and if not, I’m ok with the family and friends I have in my life. Thank you from my heart for taking the time to read and comment.
I try and live with this quote from Nichiren Daishonin…”one should become the master of one’s mind, rather then let one’s mind master him.” I once wrote that every now and then I do have a pity party, I just don’t stay too long.