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Happy Weekend


Dear Lucky,

You became an integral part of my life when I needed you the most.

I became a widow. Grief followed me. Constant shadow .

….and then you arrived. Lucky Buster. My canine grandson. You gave love and kisses from day one.

A few more weeks and you would have lived to be 14. A warrior fighter cancer twice.

You died when I was at the beach in North Carolina with 15 Virginia family and friends. You were in the hospital with Mommy and Danielle . They saw you lift your head up, as if to say goodbye as you left for The Rainbow BridgeūüĆą. They kissed you.

You gave unconditional love. Unlimited kisses whenever I asked .

It was my good fortune to take care of you whenever your family went away.I loved our times together. Walking in Central Park and chatting on a bench. Always time for kissing and snuggling.

The last time I stayed with you was our last time together. 10 wonderful days, even though you were on 9 medications. You weren’t in pain. Just fighting, and you were frisky too.

But, you knew it was our last time.

There was never a time you didn’t kiss me. I held you and said to kiss me if you would be there in August.

You wouldn’t kiss me.

Lucky forever missed , forever loved. Gama

“Until one has loved an animal, a part of one’s soul remains unawakened .” Anatole French

Forever loved. When I’m able to think of him with love, not pain and tears, I will write him a goodbye letter. His loving energy will be with me forever . Have fun Lucky playing Over The ūüĆąBridge

Gloria Vanderbilt

I just watched the beautiful tribute Nothing Left Unsaid: Gloria Vanderbilt and Anderson Cooper.

Poignant Moving Sad

I would like to share a story

about the lovely and elegant Gloria Vanderbilt.

I’m a perfume lover. Always seeking the perfect scent.

Over 50 years ago I  was at the theater with my husband. A beautiful woman swept by, and she left a trail of a delicious scent. Her back was to me and I walked up and touched her on her shoulder.

‚ÄĚMay I ask your scent‚ÄĚ, I said.

‚ÄúOh of course she said sweetly. It‚Äôs Tuberose by Mary Chess. And you get a huge bottle for $7.50‚ÄĚ as she held her hands ¬†facing each other wide apart, showing the size of the bottle. ‚ÄúSo inexpensive‚ÄĚ, she smiled.

…….and that was my 25 second meeting with beautiful Gloria Vanderbilt who died recently.

Mary Chess Tuberose, I wore for many years until it was discontinued.

Gloria Vanderbilt will live on forever in Anderson Coopers heart and soulūüíź‚ú®






Noises…‚Ķ.Not Necessary

I read that “if you’re over 60 and wake up with nothing hurting,¬† you’re dead.” (unknown.)

Seems there’s some truth here.

I’ve been practicing Hatha Yoga for over 40 years, and consider myself flexible. Physically and emotionally. But, I’ve noticed getting in and out of Lyft (car sharing service) in the city, there seems to be too much noise coming from me in the way of grunts. No matter how lady like, still a grunt.

I decided while I was in Virginia to try to curb the noises. Not using a car service here, but still in and out of my sister in laws car, (and may I add, not a huge van.)‚Ķ‚Ķ.I’m still grunting. Also in and out of chairs.

I made a conscious effort to stop. I surely don’t need the additional focus on age related sounds. That’s another post all together and may I add that “denial is a wonderful thing.” said by Kitty Carlisle many years ago, and timeless.

So far so good. I am quite disciplined and this is another way of practicing.

The new me….sans the grunts. Silence is really golden.

I would like to sincerely thank all new followers. I appreciate your support.


The Age Thing

My BFF is the same age I am. Actually she’s older……by a month. We have known each other since we were five.¬† We deliberately don’t¬† dwell on our number. Why would we?¬† What we do is relish the energy and venues of NYC. But, every now and then we talk about “it”……….and then quickly change the subject.

In golf terms, “we’re on the back nine.” A lot can happen finishing up a round of golf. You can win on the 18th.

There are quotes that hit the emotional mark about age. “A woman who tells her age will tell anything.” Oscar Wilde. I BTW tell my age..

Rosemary Harris when asked if she was really 90 by¬† Glenn Close said, “I’m 91. My last decade–it’s almost frightening because you push it away. But it’s there hovering, all the time.”¬† At the moment she’s on Broadway performing in My Fair Lady, so obviously she’s pushing.

I hope physically and emotionally to keep pushing.

“How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?” Satchel Paige

It’s that time of year… everyone reading this….I wish you Happy Holidays and the good health to enjoy!!!!!¬† May 2019 be fulfilling and joyful.



I’m Really OK

I know what its like to be loved, I know what its like to be desired, I know what its like to be without romantic love, I know what its like to still desire. I have zero complaints. Having a soul connected love for almost fifty years, not without its problems, is a wish I wish for all the single women who have never known such love. The void is covered gently, but with a strong steel grateful protector. The internet is¬†not a place I will meet another love. I may never meet another and that’s perfectly ok. I’m forever grateful for the loves, not romantic, that I have in my life. Family and friends as I have always said, “my emotional transfusions.” Not sad today even thought it’s gloomy outside.¬† Having a lovely cup of Lemon Verbena Tea, with honey, cinnamon, turmeric, and at the bottom of the cup, a surprise, a piece of¬†un- crystalized ginger, productive¬†in my apartment, and writing a little post just to say to anyone who reads this, that being ok is a lot better than not being ok,. Now, am I happy? That’s another subject altogether. With news as it is, difficult to have the innocent happiness I once had.¬† Am I able to feel joy? Of course.¬†¬†So as I said, I’m really ok. Hope you are too……Just realized the clocks change this weekend. Dark at 4ish, and it takes me days to adjust.¬† It just means my hibernation will start soon and that brings me great contentment………..Time to cozy in…….

Self Love

“The only cure I have ever known for fear and doubt and loneliness is an immense love of self” Alison Malee

The End/ or The Beginning

So, isn’t it all how you perceive life….. Summer is over, that’s true, and all the wonders of the sultry carefree days behind us. But, oh the memories we all have….and hope they are¬†special ones and you all had good health to enjoy¬†your wonder-filled moments.. I like to think of all the possibilities that Fall brings. The marketing plan for Circle my co-author¬†and I want to accomplish.¬†¬†The ¬†dreams of a better political time. The dreams of unfulfilled past dreams. The excitement of NYC and l the new venues. Tickets for so many cultural events. Family and Friends to do fun things with.¬†My oldest sons birthday in September. When he was born as well as my younger son, only 18 months apart, those were two of the happiest days of my life. I focus always on the positive, occasionally¬†removing toxic energy and people from my life. It makes living a mindfulness life that much easier. Peace of mind is the essence of ones goal, in my opinion, in attaining the¬†joys of gratitude. So, I welcome the end of Summer and look forward to all¬† the possibilities of the new seasons ahead. May¬†all reading this have many moments of joy ahead.

I appreciate my followers and when you comment, I always answer. Relating to my words is one of my joys……no matter what season it is!!!!!!!!

Devout Romantic Plans For The Royal Wedding

I’m not ashamed to say I’ve been obsessed with Meghan and Harry from day one. I admire the humanitarian work she did as a young high school student, volunteering at local food banks. She has continued her volunteer work. She was either 8 or 11 when she wrote a letter to Proctor and Gamble about their commercial, and they actually pulled the ad. Another story was she didn’t want to check¬† white or black choices she had¬† in school, even though her teacher told her she looks white and should check white. . She spoke to her father and he told her she didn’t have to declare one or the other. “make your own box.” he advised.

Harry and Meghan certainly seem to be sincerely in love, and I believe in fairy tales and they will live happily ever after…..helping those less fortunate.

I’ve watched all the Royal Weddings and sadly Princess Diana”s funeral. All live.

I have a routine, go to sleep at 11 and wake up at 4 with great excitement,  joy, and anticipation for a Royal Wedding.

Devout romantics usually follow their own set of rules when it comes to what touches us emotionally.

So, today was special because I experienced The Book Club with my granddaughter. I loved every second, and I could watch the four actresses for at least another hour. Keaton, Bergen, Fonda, and Steenburgen. What comic timing they have and just a totally feel good film. Needed in this troubled and sad time for our country. There is nothing wrong in escaping in a positive way. I read one review that was critical because  politics was not discussed. That was a  big plus for me. If I want realism, all I have to do is read and watch the news.  The Book Club is the best feel good film.

Preparation……purchased one sugarless blueberry scone. Delicious and made with mashed¬† bananas. Yura has the best. One mini tuna salad sandwich. Greens and some fruit.

Plans….. Have a date with Bill Maher at 10:00pm. At¬† 11¬† will try to go to sleep and set my phone alarm for 4am. That’s when the food will be enjoyed. Half the scone for the wedding and will save the other half for later.

So there you have it. No invitation, but I’ll be there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!