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A Catfish Personality or Not????

I might  be doing a post on experience with what appeared to be a catfish personality. He or she never  asked  for money, but something more important.  Trust. At my age,and with my  experience volunteering with the police department on  a domestic violence crisis team, a rape support team with the hospital,  years in dealing with women’s issues, I was certainly not the type to take the bait of a catfish. Not formerly trained, but have what is called “street smarts.” My purpose has been to inspire, and  write about  topics that would be helpful, and that  women could relate to. My email is on my blog, and would appreciate any stories you would like to share about experiences with a catfish. They are pathological liars and growing all the time on social networks. Women take the bait because they are looking for emotional and romantic connections….  Some simple rules to follow. If name is not on goggle or some social networks, it’s probably fake. Don’t think their  photographs are real, if you don’t meet, you don’t know. Spend as little time as possible emailing and chatting. After a few, meet and if not possible, then video chat. They won’t do that because you will see the real person. Talking on the phone is not enough proof.

I was doing a little research and baiting as well, because I wanted to beat him/her at their own game. Not easy to do. I sent pictures which I would never advise doing, and my email which also don’t do under normal circumstances. You have to know they have a need to deceive.,  you don’t want to be  their victim. Any stories that are sent to me, please know I will not use your name. You might feel empowered taking the power from the catfish and sharing your story.

Catfish belong in the sea, not in your life…..A liar is a liar is a liar.

Interesting,  when I confronted the person, they took offense and said I was paranoid instead of realizing they originally sent me false pictures , told me we would have a video chat which we didn’t,  false information about not having children, and other lies. They took little responsibility for why I lost trust. Emailing once again, they said everything from now on would be truth. Still no video chat which would prove somewhat who they were. I can’t  prove 100% that I was right, but in the beginning it was all lies and that was enough for me.

Perhaps this is all I need to say on the subject. This was not a pleasant experience, but one to learn by. A disappointment perhaps, but  just another one of life’s experiences that turn into lessons.

A New York Thing….Gym Etiquette

This was originally posted on URAWarrior. 2/2/15…A little trilogy.  I wrote Mail-room  and Elevator Etiquette. My posts are on URAWarrior and Bershan Shaw.

I am grateful to have a small gym in my apartment building. Considered a bit of a wow factor in New York City. There are general rules that have to do with safety, guests, children, and wiping down equipment after use. There are no rules for courtesy or friendliness.

A bonus for me when  I enter is to turn on the television to a station of my choice. First one there, you are the controller of the remote. I personally am not fond of depressing news, or any doctor giving symptoms of emotional or physical illnesses. When I exercise, I enjoy mindless TV. I am only on the treadmill for 45 minutes. What a difference a year makes. It was always 3 miles in 55 minutes. Still feel good doing  2 miles in 40 minutes. But, there are those times when someone else gets there first, and then you are at the mercy of the remote control, controlled by someone else, and you grin and bare it, hoping their routine is over shortly. Some are wearing headphones listening to their music, and the remote is available. Most are grunting and rarely ever wave or say hi. If you are not the “hi”type in the elevator or the mail- room, the gym is no different. I am perfectly fine with silence, and not looking to make life long friends in these typical New York places of non-acknowledgement. “No problem,” I say to myself. What I am not fine with, is the guy who shall remain nameless, who perspires profusely, and never wipes down the equipment. He just gets up and leaves. Now what? I certainly am not going to be the gym police and inform him of his carelessness. The treadmill literally dripping and quite gross. I say nothing. I’m a before and after wiper.

With some humor, I observe a few competitive moves going on  when  a few are in the gym at the same time. A guy can be on the treadmill or one lifting weights. When a young woman enters, it seems (a coincidence?) that speed is quickly rising as the amount of weights as well. Grunting increasing. The gym has never been a competitive arena for me or a social event of the day. I just think that in between the grunts and heavy breathing, a small wave or hi would be sufficient……………………………………………………………..and of course a wipe down upon leaving.

February

Well, here it is February….and what used to be a state occasion, Valentines Day, is just  another day. I wrote Valentines Day Go Away last year and will re-blog again this year with a different year. Not much has changed in my romantic life and I’m ok with that. I have the most beautiful loving memories of my husband, and that will stay with me for the rest of my life. A new love? Hardly! Not even close…..and I’m ok with that. So, on the 14th, there will be no cards from my husband, no flowers from him, no romantic dinner. But I will be ok. I have treasures in my mind. I enjoy beautiful cards from family. Different yes, but I’m ok with that.

February 14th will be a wonderful occasion, just without the romance. Love yes…a dear friend is celebrating a very special birthday. We will have dinner at one of her favorite restaurants and then experience Dianne Reeves, Jazz at Lincoln Center.

I focus on all that is positive in my life. Celebrate and rejoice in what I am grateful for. Feeling well, living and enjoying one of the greatest cities in the world. I’m a tourist in my own city. The idea of celebrating a friend with another forever close friend is enough for me to enjoy Valentines Day in my own way. Would I love to go dancing? You bet and very much. Just no one to go dancing with……..but I am very ok with that..

Happy February to all. New Month, New Hopes

Proud and Happy To Share The Neighborhood Journal (@nbhdjournal)

Orange County, California

Paulette's avatarmother nature is a man and other observations..

My grandson was born with a creative edge. He has just started an online journal.  Please give it a look and check out their first interview with Kevin Clark about his life as a filmmaker and member of a local Orange County band.  The Neighborhood Journal documents the connections, inspirations, and stories of friends in Orange County, California.They highlight the community of young creators, innovative businesses, local eateries, and undiscovered wonders of their neighborhood.

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Elderberry Tea ……….Buddha Tea

Many people have asked where to buy Elderberry Tea. I wasn’t able to find in health shops or super markets.  I am happy to share another company with integrity and they also have other teas. Buddha Tea. They have a great site. Cheers to good health and a cozy cup of healthy tea.

Reality Check…..every now and then….

Forgot shallow

Paulette's avatarmother nature is a man and other observations..

I had one of those sleepless nights, and started to think, not the best way to fall asleep, and realized the friends in my life that I treasure and cherish all have the same traits. Not such a surprise. If you know yourself very well, you make good choices about who you let in. So what are the words that really turn me off…..arrogance, insincerity, shallow, entitlement, hate, negative, mean-spirited. …………………..and the opposite? Kindness, Humility, Caring, Genuine, Integrity, Loving, Honest, and both lists could go on. The point being, you need to do a reality check.  Do you really look forward to seeing “them”?. Are there some laughs when together or just complaints? Too many people have way too many people cluttering up their inner peace space. If you really  work on yourself to achieve a mellow life, do a little inventory check and see who and  what can be…

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Friendship Garden

Nourishing plants thrive in your Friendship Garden

Paulette's avatarmother nature is a man and other observations..

Friends are like beautiful plants.  You nourish and cherish…but then, what happens when even friendships of over 50 years don’t work any more…no fighting or arguments, just too many differences the years have brought…..what to do? Just like a Garden of Love, the toxic plants must be removed to allow new growth. For every toxic person you let go of, a new free of hostility friend will come into your life..the same way you do physical cleaning, emotional cleansing is just as important.  It’s not the years of a friendship, that really count as much as the quality of understanding and compassion for one another. Letting go does get easier since you are letting go of negative energy ,and making room for all that is positive. Your Garden of Love will be a visual and emotional place of beauty and serenity.

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Elevator Observations in NYC

I guess a New York Thing

Paulette's avatarmother nature is a man and other observations..

I often wonder what is on the ceiling of the elevator, when people are all looking up at the ceiling, or eyes fixed on the numbers .making sure the elevator is stopping at their floor. Not too much social interaction, so after moving to New York, I didn’t find anything of interest on the ceiling and I did trust the elevator not to get stuck…so my method is this…upon entering, a lovely smile, but no verbal interaction. Saving that for last..Upon leaving a simple “enjoy your day or night” seems to work.

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Mistakes???? Now what????

It seems to me, that the New Year triggers many emotions. I quote a Russian Proverb…..”Longing for the past is like chasing after the wind.” Not the best way to live. I work very hard to live in the moment. Takes energy to discipline your mind not to go to places that cause you stress. Over thinking causes more over thinking, and then obsessing takes your energy away, and serves no purpose whatsoever. We should grow beyond our mistakes. Then we take the power from the mistake and empower ourselves…..giving us the power to turn them into our life’s learning  process. Your golden opportunity to create wisdom.

New Year Thoughts on New Years Eve And Beyond

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Paulette's avatarmother nature is a man and other observations..

Alone…..Not lonely Day…Went to a film with two good friends. Early  supper and several hours of intelligent conversation about many subjects.  In New York City, social energy is  there and contagious, especially when with women who have something to say. We didn’t solve any of the worlds  problems….not even NYC issues. Night…My son and “daughter” went to Carolines on Broadway, a terrific comedy club for the early show. They asked me to stay over and celebrate with them and a few couples. A lovely invitation even though I had made earlier plans  with Kathy Griffin and Anderson Cooper , watching the show with Lucky, my Havenese love.  I did my thing and wanted them to do theirs with friends. I did manage to come out of the bedroom to share in welcoming the New Year with champagne. I am forever grateful to have family a crosstown bus away. Later That…

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