Still a dreamer…Old Memories and New Hopes


“Every heart sings a song, incomplete until another heart whispers back.”’

Back in Virginia

It was a strange surreal year, never thinking I would be traveling again and visiting my second favorite family and friends State and my better State of Mind. Everyone tells me I sound happier here. In NYC I have my family and a few friends. And a new wonderful friend . Sonia and I are both Taurus and we had instant friendship, Most everything I do has a ticket attached. Well, all venues were closed and I stayed isolated most of the time. Visiting my son, daughter in love and granddaughter eased the pandemic for me and Sundays were a joy. My birthday was a virtual one. We all had dinner from a fabulous restaurant Marea and a cake too . Each in our own space. We made do. The masks ?? I rarely went out because walking and sort of breathing with a mask didn’t work very well. My desk looked like a pharmacy. Wipes, masks, more wipes and every sanitizing liquid. Paper towels and toilet tissue lived under my bed. The telephone was my emotional tool talking every day, many times a day to family and friends. My granddaughter thought I was dealing very well being alone. I wanted to continue to inspire her and not think of jumping off the roof too often. I value her professional opinion as well since she recently received her Masters, and will be working as a therapist in family counseling .
So now fully vaccinated with a sense of peace. Not always wearing the mask and back in Virginia. Suburban life style instead of city life. Not alone. Living and loving once again being with my sister in law and my Virginia loves. I have been to more parties, cocktail times, wine tasting, dinners and patio parties. and events since May 25, then the last years in the city. Only one wonderful woman Sam had fantastic holiday and dance parties and she has moved. When settled she said she’s going to continue.
So why don’t I entertain? Very simple. I just don’t feel like it. Before I was a widow, I did. Now I don’t and no one I know does. My daughter in loves dear friend Sue has holiday dinners. They are festive and fun. Bottom line. I have more fun in Virginia. Best news . My sons and granddaughter visiting in August. My nephew will be visiting too. Have Outer Banks Beach week to look forward to. All my Virginia loves will be together. Chatting with my sister in law every day and night is perfect. Her daughter and family a few blocks away and my niece and great grand nieces the bonus and joy.
NYC is my home and I leave the exquisite shades of green and all the trees and flowers , all I love, and in a cab from Penn Station I see buildings. I’m alone again. But not for long. I will see my city loves soon and feel forever grateful to have New York New York And Virginia. Very grateful🤗

Quarantine Chat

Hopefully a 6 hour train ride will stimulate my creativity. I’ve been trying to write about this wonderful app. I’ve been on since February. It is definitely not a dating site and you chat with people from all over the world and the states. I’ve spoken to over 50. Several new people following my blog. I didn’t start out to inspire, but how lovely when that happens in a very natural way.
Gathering all my stories to do a post I hope everyone will enjoy. If anyone told me something personal, I will not write their story .
So here’s hoping a very long train ride will be productive.

Again wishing everyone to be safe and stay healthy.😘


Experiences can be life changing and wonderful. They can also be a lesson. What I recently learned was to never allow someone’s fantasy to invade your reality. When red flags are flying in your face, good idea to pay attention. I learned something very important. There are those times when unheard melodies are sweeter left unheard.
I feel empowered and emotionally lighter. A wonder-filled feeling .

2021 Joys

Well it’s the end of 2020 and what else can I say that hasn’t be said? I’m happy to see it end. Since I only wrote three posts since March, my motivation and creativity are hidden under a mask. I did want to write about a site I joined called Quarantine Chat. NOT a dating site. You engage with people from all over the USA and the World . It’s been interesting and will write further this week. The concept works.
The purpose of this post is to Wish Everyone Good Health and Joys for the coming year. May you all know what hugs are again. The human touch is essential. We will have a new leader President Joseph Biden. … and Vice President Kamala Harris 1/20. Looking forward to leadership, not drama.

May your days be filled with music, laughter, and the good health to enjoy both.

A Touch of Normalcy

It’s been over 7 months of semi isolation. Decided to actually go out for dinner with a friend . Outdoor dining of course. She went over to the restaurant a few blocks away, to select a table as far away as possible from other diners. I can’t say I was super relaxed being served by a waiter wearing a mask and gloves. I was happy because all the tables were filled. My favorite restaurant in my neighborhood. The manager was happy to have people again. The food was good and we promised ourselves no politics discussed . It felt a little normal until the check arrived. We would usually freshen our lipstick. Instead we put on our masks to go out in the Twilight Zone. Stay healthy.


Sleep Whenever

Does it really make any difference what time you go to  bed or get up in the morning/afternoon? I live alone during this “time of the masks.” It makes no difference, except to wake up!!!! My daughter in law after 1pm, had my resident manager check on me. He was relieved to find me alive, and I was relieved to be wearing sweats…No need to have anyone check if  I’m breathing. I’m watching television shows I would rarely watch if not for isolation and crazy times. Two essentials. Mindless and not political. Takes my mind off reality. so bring on  90 Day Fiancé,  Married At First Sight, Love Is Blind…….Well you get my point. Also new routine. Text my daughter in law when I’m up.

I don’t binge on food or alcohol, but for sure, addicted to getting away from reality to watch “reality” shows. Staying up until the wee hours and enjoying every minute……with ABSOLUTELY no guilt. Yes, there are good books to read and music to listen. Don’t feel like it At least I’m motivated to do my exercise routine everyday and desk cycle every night for one hour. That’s about it. Clean my apartment and outside occasionally. Face Time with family and friends. Oh, and I remember to eat. Pescatarian so it’s easy.

Saying sane and positive even though I rarely if ever see my family who live the other side of town.

It is what it is, and is what it isn’t, Sleep well ALL………… BE WELL…….

Anything Really Change?

Michelle Obama feeling a little depressed. I think we all have a feeling of sadness for what was once our lives. Continue to feel grateful for all I have . Sadly as a friend said” our old age is being stolen from us.” Still can’t whine because hopefully we have years ahead of us. I fear between now and November, there will be ugly times. Frightening words and deeds. I live with sameness not really being with family or going out. When I do go out with my mask and see others with masks, I’m in the Twilight Zone. No one has lived like this, so it’s our emotional tools that get us through the days.
My go to mindless tv, is 90 Day Fiancé . Love the foolishness and feel no guilt enjoying to the Max.
Sorry to repeat, but isolating is repeating every day and night trying!!!!…I do have a new routine that I love.Desk Cycle. Every night for one hour pedaling to nowhere watching tv.. Not going to give grateful list, but it’s there. I’m trying so hard to be strong and hopeful. Wish I had loads of bread recipes to share. I don’t have one, nor do I care. If anyone interested in the healthiest oatmeal recipe, please ask . I would feel motivated and useful to share.
We will get through this. We have no choice.
Wish you all good health. Physical and emotional. A virtual hug in there too. I really miss hugs!!!

How Are You All Doing?

We’re living in such uncertain times. We have no answers to comfort us. Watching the news 24/7 can be debilitating to say the least. The number of cases keeps going up. We have no plan. We need to have hope that life will go forward with positive energy. My heart aches for all the sickness, loss of jobs, racial inequality, loss of businesses. The dreams people had are now shuttered stores. I know families are using this time being creative and loving. Others not so fortunate. I was involved with domestic violence cases many years ago. Sadly, because of isolation , other families are suffering, not thriving. Children have to get back to schools, but at what cost to them and the teachers? I’m sorry to sound so negative, but my feelings are mixed with frightening thoughts. I’m still isolating having no desire to go outdoor dining. Difficult to concentrate and read. What works is a Mindfulness life . Continue my exercise routine and try to live in the present. …. and of course the ever present gratefulness for all I have. I’m not in a bunker. Hope you’re all safe and healthy. If baking sourdough bread, gardening, trying new recipes etc etc works. Sounds great. I think I’ll make oatmeal.


I can’t believe it’s taken this long for me to write about isolating and quarantine experience. Perhaps some can relate to the malaise feeling that is now part of my life.Motivation? Not so much… I’m not someone baking sourdough bread, learning a new language, or starting a big puzzle , not even a small one. No new recipes on the horizon . I hope this doesn’t turn into a rambling post. I know all about being grateful for family and friends. I Zoom, FaceTime, and just talking on the phone and communicating is essential. I know I have running water and air conditioning. I wasn’t fired as so many Americans live with. Financial ruin and living with fear. I’m sad for all the wrongs in this world. I’m hoping and believing the numbers for this virus will go down and healing in this broken country begins in November . I wear a mask and social distance . I don’t understand why you wouldn’t . It’s not political, it’s scientific evidence.
I know practicing Buddhist philosophy, doing nothing is something. Batteries are recharging.
Not doing anything negative. Not drinking Vodka with a straw or putting on 20lbs going to the refrigerator every 10 minutes.
Continue to do my exercise routine every day. Not emotionally healthy to obsess when???? No plans for Virginia. No plans for anything…. at this time .
Daisaku Ikeda said “Winter Always Turns To Spring.” Yes, we live with fear and uncertainty for now, but hope is forever. I still hope for a better country.
May you all stay safe and healthy🗽🍀🧘‍♂️❤️